Refuge

I seem to turn here when I don't feel great, it's become a refuge of sorts. A place where I can dump thoughts and emotions and not have to worry about being judged (not that I have been judged here, it's just residual from the real world).

Yesterday I was so proud of myself, I got dressed and went out walking in the bright sunshine and it felt great! I lasted about 15 minutes before it became too painful to walk, even if I wanted more of that glorious fresh air. And today... today is crap. The pelvic pain is brutal, it makes my whole body and brain shut down so all I can do is sleep or wish to be asleep to escape from the throbbing, burning ache in my broken hip. Now a headache kicked in so I broke down and took a large dose of Tylenol. I know I need to manage my pain better but my rationale is this: when the pain gets unbearable I'll still have big guns to help with it, because I won't have used them up on lesser pain (bodies get used to medications and they stop working after a while). Call me the pain squirrel.

Grey skies and sporadic snow are back too, which is depressing. We've had so little sunshine this winter, it's abnormal and driving people mad. So that's my venting for the day.

Through all of this I got a load of laundry going cuz I do love fresh bed sheets, I cleaned my kitchen and there's a pot of ham & pea soup bubbling away on the stove - I had a craving. I cried while dicing the onions, I cried watching reruns of House, I'm pathetic lol. 

If you have any good TV series to recommend please let me know, I love medical shows (ripped through Chicago Med, The Good Doctor, Nurse Jackie, etc.) and also murder mysteries, family shows, comedies. Not keen on sci-fi, westerns or period pieces. Thanks in advance you beautiful people!